“I think I left myself behind.”
“I never painted dreams I painted my own reality.”
There are a few people who would never understand the realities of paintings or any other artwork by only looking at it because it goes beyond an abstract piece or a couple of pictures put together. It takes more than; it takes to fully know the artist and understand what is going through. That’s why only people who knew Frida Kahlo and studied her life, know what she really meant with every piece of art.
My piece of art has a very personal meaning. The painting itself without the small college hides a meaning behind the way it could be probably perceived. The figure symbolizes myself on those gray days that I just start overthinking if I really have a purpose in life and on the many memories I have, that I'd like to experience again. For example, the white flowers mean how pure my heart can be sometimes how I love to cheer others no matter how down I feel, and how I rather deal with my feelings myself before I express to others whatever is bothering me. On the other hand, this flower is also related to flamenco. I have danced flamenco my whole life and I had to take a break to focus on school and also work a full-time job because I don't have the privilege of just going to school. On my gray days, I just think about how much I miss dancing and choreographing my ideas.
I think everything started with the passport picture and how I left my country. I think over there remain my best memories. The word "ALAS" means wings in Spanish, and as a symbol, it represents how I always have this desire to conquer the world and achieve big things, and there's so much I want to get done at the same time that I ended up not doing anything and everything starts to frustrate me.
On the other hand, the picture with my dad is one the things I miss the most it's this closed relationship we had when I was a little girl and how he used to pick me up and take me to the art gallery he had in Cuba, I will spend hours just watching what he was painting. But now it's different, he barely paints because bills have to get paid regardless and he doesn't live front painting anymore. Stuff like that hurts me. Also, the fact that I barely spend time with him, and I see time passing by, he's getting old, I'm becoming an adult, and I don't get to live stuff like the picture I put on the college anymore.
The picture with the 2 ladies I think is one of those memories that I'm glad I went through. My grandmother and grant mother raised me till I was 15 years old and then came to this country. I think I very much took for granted moments I think that I should've enjoyed more of them because now that my grant grandmother is gone, I'm just hugging the memories of it.
This project made me realize that we have to fight to bring back memories or at least find something similar that could fill empty spaces like those memories left on us.
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